Thank you very much for your replies!
Regarding therapy: It's the first time I've ever seen a therapist and I have no idea how to determine if we're on the right track or not. I'm not in the US and switching is a bit difficult because of my type of health insurance (not impossible though, of course). He says his main goal is to make me question my negative thinking which I think is a very good point.. We talked a lot about the fact that the world in my head and reality are two different things.. However, when it comes to my actual problems he keeps saying that they'll disappear once I'm healthy enough to find a new job. He yawns a lot and has been asking me "what he should do with me" twice. I just feel like he thinks I'm just a bit stuck and working full-time again will make my problems disappear. I tried talking to him about the issue, but he doesn't seem to agree with me that getting a new job won't magically erase my problems...
Those were good points. It's hard for me to have patience with myself. I feel like everything comes with an agenda (if that's the right expression).. I'm fixing my health, but, of course, because of it I have a gap in my résumé, I fall behind in student loan payments and - back to my topic - I get older without being where or who I want to be. Although patience and treating my body with care and love are the crucial points, it's hard not to get overwhelmed by things like angry banks who pressure me because of outstanding student loan payments. I pay as much as I can, but being scared to open the mailbox every day is not exactly the kind of peace I need. I know it probably won't be like that forever...
Sometimes it's just hard to see the bigger picture, I guess.
The "Planning Sunday" process is great, thank you for sharing that with me, Richard.