My story

**Posts:** 6 · by **spin** » Tue Feb 24, 2004 10:59 pm

Hi, im 16 years old and my name is Scott, last summer I made a descision that has dramaticly changed my life. I thought it would be cool to try smoking marijuanna... After about my 3rd time doing it, for some stupid reason i thought for some reason that I had died. at this point I was so shooken i couldnt even focus on anything but that fact. I didnt know at the time but i was having a panic attack. So I went and told my mom and dad what was happening, At this point i thought I had totaly left this world. My mom tried to keep me calm but I kept insisting that I was dead. after a few hours i finally calmed down and went to bed, my parents were disapointed in me and I was dissapointed in my self. Ever since that my life has changed. I am seeing it as a totally different place

One night while i fell asleep i awoke gasping for air like i were drowning, i tried to go back to sleep but it kept happening like a bad night mare... i stayed up all that night i was fearing for my life. The next morning i told my mom and i got all emotional and i think i scared my mom.. I wanted to go to the doctors but it was on a sunday night and my doctor wasnt open. I didnt want to sleep, just the thought of dieing in my sleep scared the life out of me.
My mom got me a doctors appointment and i was diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disored) Currently i am taking thse pills called clonazepam r they seem to help with my panic attacks. Although odd enough some weeks i totaly forget i have it... then out of know where around 12 at night when im chatting on my computer I start shaking trembling, the back of my head just vibrates... By now i am used to it an i just calm my self down by laughing at the thought "Ha im having a panic attack, i can get over this." and i do in a short amount of time.

The thing thats bothering me now is that when i think about i have trouble staying focused on things its really frustrating, and every now and then i will get these shots of pain in to my head its happened to my left eye once and now the right side of my head by my ear, but every time this happens i of corse think of the worst, Oh my god i have brain cancer im going to die, i cant focus in school... this is the part that really bothers me the most. I just wanna know what you guys think i should do about these pains, or if u have them what you do about them...

If you read the whole thing i thank you very much for taking the time, I just want to stress the fact that you dont have to be like other people to be cool, and dont try stupid things like me, Thanx alot guys

Scott.

**Posts:** 3 · by **ad123** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 9:04 am

Hi Scott
I just wanted to say that I can relate to what your feeling. I recently saw the doctor who informed me that when you are run down and stressed, there are a whole variety of symptons that you can get. I was getting a feeling of pressure on my left eye (and I thought to worst of course like I have a brain tumour!!). I'm sure the pains you are feeling are just down to worry and stress. The way I would look at it is if these pains are there, and then they go away, it can't be anything too bad or else the pain would be constantly there. One of the things with GAD is that your body is primed to look out for odd pains and sensations you have. So as you soon as you feel something, you take more notice of it that the average everyday person.

I also thing you are very lucky to be able to calm yourself down when having a panic attack. The majority of people can't do this, so well done for mastering the art!!

Try having a look at your life, and try and identify the areas that make you unhappy. Perhaps then you can look at the route cause of why you panic. As for GAD, I beleive that thats just part of who you are - some people worry, and some people don't - your just one of the worriers - like me!!

**Posts:** 2821 · by **Roger Elliott** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 12:38 pm

Hi there Scott and welcome to the forums.

I'm sorry to hear you had such a nightmarish experience. You can hardly blame yourself for trying something out though - many young people do and don't suffer like you have.

But the question is, what to do now? How do you get back to being the same as you were before you had this period of extreme anxiety?

The first thing you can do is take some time to understand exactly what a panic attack is, and to read the stories of others who have had very similar experiences to you. This will help you understand that what happened to you is much more normal that you might think.

Take a look at our online panic attacks course.

The course will also tell you about the best way to treat the after-effects of this sort of thing. Once you have had a look, come back and tell us what you think about how it applies to you.

The best of luck to you

Roger

**Posts:** 6 · by **spin** » Wed Feb 25, 2004 9:43 pm

Wow thanx alot for helpin me out, and thanx alot to and123 for telling me about those pain sensations, because thats the thing that gets me most of the time, im just glad to hear that im not the only one with these pain sensations, I was thinking about going to my doctor about it but it hasnt been that serious yet.

Im also happy that i can quickly get my self out of panick attacks, because I just know to my self that they wont harm me in anyway and I can stop them in less than a minute. And i've heard of peoples that can last for an exceeding amount of time, I feel sorry for all of those people

I am starting to understand the ways of anxiety more and more each day, say of instance last week i had this small eye infection.. my eye would get blood shot in the bottom corner, and my mom had these drops she gave me to take, and i was reading the directions and it said something about glaucoma then i thought i had glaucoma... just stupid things like that, i am slowly learn how to do deal with

And thanx for that link roger alot of the stuff in that website relates to the pannic attacks ive had, like being embarassed and so forth. Its a good website, im glad you guys are here for one another.

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