@Optymistyk
Optymistyk wrote:I was thinking I should become a teacher or a child psychologist. I think the education system is bad and we lack good teachers who actually give a damn. So many bad things have their beginning in school - loneliness, depression, anxiety, death of creativity. School is a place where grades in some useless subject are somehow more important than helping the kid who gets bullied. When I was in school everybody knew I was bullied and noone gave a damn. I think there's no task more important than making sure the kids have a chance at becomming happy productive adults
What happened to becoming a teacher or counselor?
I went through a similar exercise in 2010 of writing down what I value, etc. It is a fun, worthwhile exercise and I think everyone should take the time to reflect on those things. But, there is a problem. Searching for a "calling" is a purely mental exercise that gets you nowhere. Why?
Because (1) sitting around mulling over all the potential futures doesn't give you any lived feedback and (2) there is no such thing as a "calling" because as you live and get feedback whatever "calling" will change.
As an analogy, you are sitting on a rock looking up at the mountains. There are many paths you could take, but you can't seem to get moving. You watch as other people walk past you and start on their journeys. You are certain that you don't want to hike to the top of some mountains while others look more appealing, but which one? Which mountain is calling you?
You self-handicap as you think, and think, and think. You don't want to pick the wrong path, you don't want to fail, so you sit there. You have great intentions. When you do finally pick a path you are going to crush it you think! You will have the power, the strategy, the righteousness to be the rock everyone leads on.
And so you sit there.
Other people are taking their paths and you watch them. You see them struggling, switching paths, wasting time, getting hurt. A few of them even retreat all the way back to your rock and "start over". Foolish of them, right? NO! They are learning while you sit on your rock. They are getting the lived experience. They are climbing mountains!
You have explained your excuses for not giving the military a try, for not giving the Red Cross a go, and presumably you now have some reason why you don't want to get off your rock and give teaching/counseling a try.
Look, I'm not saying reflection on your values isn't helpful, but it must be supplemented by action! It is a balance. There is no such thing as "a calling" in life. That's hogwash.