I just need some validation. It says online how bulimia is a psychological problem, but my bulimia came from my dad always calling me fat. Or at least I believe it did. He always talked about how I should lose weight, then said things like "are you going to eat ALL of that?" It was all my life. Even in front of friends, which was humiliating.
Whenever he did that I would get upset and stop eating, putting away the food or whatever. That's when he would get all "don't be like that" and proceed to try to force feed me. I always felt like he was messing with my head.
I always KNEW it was him causing the problems and not any hereditary issue I have. I am not gorgeous but I think I'm pretty enough. I'm happily curvy (now), and my boyfriend (who helped me though a lot of the emotional problems that came from my dad's abuse) likes the way I look.
Anyway, now my parents are getting a divorce and my dad is fighting back by saying he was not abusive (not going into all of those details because its not the point of this post). He has said that my bulimia was due to a "neurotransmitter deficiency particularly serotonin" (he is a neurologist).
I just need to know if it is him or me. I just need validation, please. After being called fat all my life it HAS to be that...right?