im tired.....need to relieve some stress

hello everyone, Im a new person here, just signed up. I am 26 years old and married with three kids. I have depression I think. I was diagnosed years and years ago, and about four years ago decided to fight against depression. But it seems so hard for me sometimes, i pretend to myself, and my family, my friends that I am ok, and now Im just exhausted. Ive made an online friend that has been there for me, but now, its affecting my home relationship. I need relief, please, be my friend. I dont want to pretend anymore.
Bridgette