I'm going to try and keep things short. My name is Jaydon and I am 16 years old. I've never been diagnosed with any mental illness, or seen a therapist. Around 1 month ago I was prescribed a medication known as isotretinoin (Accutane). I started to have intrusive thoughts (but I felt like I could control them?), depression, and really bad anxiety. I've never been the one to struggle with my mental health, until now. While on the medication I would lay in bed and worry about things such as demonic possession or even hurting the ones I love. I alerted my dermatologist and have been off of the medication for almost 4 weeks! The thoughts are now gone and I was starting to feel like myself again for almost three whole days, until last night.Last night I was laying in bed, letting my mind run wild, and I began to WORRY about schizophrenia. Mental health disorders terrify me in general but I couldn't shake the thought of.. "What if, what if I lost my mind? What if I start hearing voices?" I couldn't sleep and began to have trouble breathing. I felt a weight on my chest and I started to cry. I've ALWAYS been the one to get super paranoid, a few months ago I watched a few videos on ghosts and I had trouble sleeping for almost two weeks. The worst one EVER was when I started to worry about becoming possessed, two weeks into the medication. What is wrong with me,? I'm so scared, I've always been so happy and "normal" Is this anxiety?
Depression and anxiety runs in my family, both of my grandmothers have it.. as well as my sister. No one that I'm aware of even has schizophrenia. I've never heard voices.
