What the hell am I and what am I doing?

Poor illusions

22 years old, virgin . . .

And fretting over a relationship with a certain girl.

I think that you need several doses of Tom Leykis.

quietvoice wrote:

22 years old, virgin . . .

And fretting over a relationship with a certain girl.

What do you mean?
I'm afraid to be a bad person since I tried to hurt her more and more.

Guess what? wrote:

quietvoice wrote:And fretting over a relationship with a certain girl.

What do you mean?
I'm afraid to be a bad person since I tried to hurt her more and more.

Guess what? wrote:I don't know, I'm so confused; probably I care so much because she is the "first", i'm so immature and emotional.

You are too young to be in a relationship, according to Tom. And I see his point—you need to go out and experience other women, many women, doing so in a safe manner in regards to any potential pregnancies or whatnot, before you settle in with one particular woman, . . .

Yeah well, when nobody want you it is difficult applying that thing.

You need to get laid brother, period. By any means necessary. ANY means. (Well, except force. Never do that.) Your brain will thank you. Your too much like a junior high kid it seems. Way, way to into your own head. I was always ugly af, my whole life, but I didn't have the internet to wallow my life away in. I had to get out and figure it out, like all fugly mofos of my era did. You were considered weak and less of a man if you acted this way about it. Play within your league, be realistic in your expectations and quit being so emotional and whiny....or at least learn to hide it around other people. Seriously, take acting lessons if you need to, but do not show this weakness. I understand being sensitive, I really do, and there's a time and place for it...the therapist couch. In the real world, stay lean and mean and fake you some confidence.

quit being so emotional and whiny.

Really.
I always think that it is good to externate my true emotion, to make understand to the others how I am, and for being honest and clear.
'Cause I hate people that for saying something, say intstead "I don't know who i am, who i wanna go, etc.'
But the truth is that people want be helped but don't want to give help.

Or maybe i'm too annoying, i don't say i'm not, but I just want to externate what i feel. Sometimes I even do right, since others started to treat me in a different way, and because she said the story, in a different way than I did. But maybe i just skipped parts that i don't remember.

Just saying anyway that depend on who is whiny: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKRy3L_7n_Q
This dude is rude, violent, angry and a crazy whore; for a girl, but nobody will say that he is annoying, emotional or weak

Ok "externate" isn't a word, but I'm guessing you mean "express" and I'm getting that there may be a language issue here. No worries.

Really though you can do or be however you want, it's just that you'll get different responses from society and individuals bases on those choices. Rude and violent is no way to be for sure, but neither is needy and weak. Is it possible there are some different options in between those two extremes? Finding yourself is a hard process, but remember nothing in life is really that big of a deal and your emotions and feelings are just that: yours. They may feel like the most important thing of all, but everyone feels that way. Especially when your young. Maybe it's just time you need. I'd go get laid for starters if your still a virgin. That right there can mess your head up big time.

Yeah sorry for the bad english.

your emotions and feelings are just that: yours. They may feel like the most important thing of all, but everyone feels that way. Especially when your young.

I don't understand well this part.

Anyway i'm the same dude of this thread: viewtopic.php?t=107134
No "laid for starters" for me.

No worries, at least you speak a couple different languages, so that's awesome.

It just means your feelings seems like so important and meaningful, and they are, but there is a whole world out there that doesn't think much about you. It's ok, really. Try to focus on people on your level and help each other get better. Girls are a hard puzzle, more than ever now. But there are so, so, so many of them, you're chances are very good to get one. Maybe not the most beautiful at first, but so what? You have to walk before you run. Make yourself the best you can be, that's numerous uno, number 1

I'm italian. My english is not so good, but i can speak it well enough,i suppose. XD

I will do surgeries to improve myself. And sure i'm so in need to be loved to become morbid.
This is sad.. I'm so sorry for this.

I understand, truly I do. When I was that age, life was very difficult for me. It's part of growing. Hey at least you live in a beautiful country! People dream of just visiting there, me included.

Improving is all we can do, keep getting better. Hang in there, it will get better. Do your best everyday

Except for the history, it is not so good living here. Trust me.
I have to improve for a better life. It is objective that the more you are attractive, the more things will be better.

Except for real serious things like sickness,etc.
Anyway i talk about her once again saturday. My being whiny comes out again, but it was good, since looks like her version is not like mine (but maybe i forgot to say something), but they didn't tell me on what .
And then one of them (i think i have to start avoiding this dude. He is not so friendly as i thought) started to attack me saying "Why do you stalk her on instagram? I know you do it! I KNOW!"

He was crazy,jesus and i say to hom and confirm here that I NEVER stalk anyone.
I don't what her story, i don't put likes, i don't even ask anything about her. These are serious things to say.

How is she putting this idiots against me?

*those idiots.

I didn't mean idiots, i'm so irritable.

Anyway on the whatsapp group she writes that in the evening she goes out with guys, then with a different one and so on.
Honestly it does not hurt me, a little 'annoyance, but nothing else, I do not know why.
I felt much worse the other day without knowing anything, to say.

Who knows how my head works.

Just, uff, I'm still alone. Once upon a time I kept saying "girls don't give me chance. But I know I can be great!"; now I can't say it. Well, in that little time that we were together, I think i have been decent, a little bit after the we closed too, but for the rest I have been a worm .
The moment when a girl will reject me again I will feel that I deserve it. I no longer feel worthy of anything, to put it simply