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Thank you so much for not deleting this message. You really need to stop being so hard on yourself. For many of us, we have this belief that when we quit smoking that the world around us magically becomes perfect. However, the world is not perfect and neither are we.
We all have and suffer to a degree from our own personal weaknesses that inherently hold us back in life. The weed is one of those great tools that allows us to accept these things about ourselves and in many cases creates many others. Once the cloud of smoke is lifted, these things we have avoided or created come back. It is your time to identify and correct these things for tremendous personal growth. If this was comfortable it would not truly be personal growth. You read many happy stories on this site of how great everyone’s life is now that they have overcome this habit. However, there are many struggles wrapped up in these moments you sometimes do not read. Many people are re-discovering things they had forgotten about themselves- good and bad.
How courageous you are at your age to turn away from the people who you have called friends because you knew that the situation was not right for you. How powerful is that? Your entire teen years have been about smoking and for some reason you decide to quit smoking. I know you said it was a panic attack, but many smokers have experienced that and much worse and continued to smoke. You were powerful enough to make that change and I am certain you are powerful enough to change the things you are unhappy with in your life.
Seven weeks and counting….. What’s next?