Idk what to do

Ahnelson wrote: I look at my bucket list and see (-get a life -get a husband -have children -live to thirty) and I just don’t know why I would want to do those things anymore,

So throw away the bucket list. Throw away the pro/cons list. It is not working for you, so stop using what doesn’t work.

Set goals that are short term. Set goals that are focused on a much quicker time frame. Use weeks instead of years or decades.

What can you accomplish by April 16th?

You’re thinking on a huge scale, of things that’ll happen years into your future, and they will happen in their given time, so..with that said start small.

Don’t think about all the things you haven’t done, and start on the things you have, you’ve gotten out of bed, you’ve continued another day feeling they way you have, more importantly you’ve reached out which in itself is a huge thing.

Is there anything you like to do? Something creative, or a sport? Set yourself a goal in that, it doesn’t have to be huge, even the smallest thing is an achievement, it will all soon add up

What you are feeling is really tough. I can say that because I have been in a similar situation but the thing I learned is that what I was feeling was just that, a feeling. All of the negative things I thought about myself were just my own misguided opinions. They were not fact. Life can really suck in high school, let's just be honest about that, but high school does not last forever, college does not last forever (hopefully, lol), and feelings and emotions do not last forever. I heard a Christian comedian say one time that one of his favorite phrases in the Bible was, "And it came to pass..." Now, this technically means that something happened or was fulfilled but I like how he took a little creative license and used this phrase to mean that everything passes; the good, the bad, and the ugly. I am glad you are reaching on this community but verbalizing how you are feeling with an actual person is also really helpful too. Problems bottled up inside of us start to eat away at us and suck out our joy. Talking about what you are feeling is incredibly helpful when it is with someone that you trust and value. It sounds like you are nervous to tell your mom and that is understandable but if you do not want to talk to her there are plenty of other people out there for you. Teachers, counselors, or you can Google therapists in your area. There are hotlines, texting lines, and many people along with this community who can help. Good luck, you got this!

Wanna type on Skype and maybe video sometimes as I don’t want you going trough what I was trough and I am sure I will help you with all as I totaly understand you . This short replies you are getting here will not help a lot , but we can chat every day as I have extra time lately .

antun.anic is my skype profile name so feel free to add me for a start and keep your head up , you will see how all seems funny when you are all done with it , I promise you you will be happy and all as I was in the same where you are

Stay strong. That's all you need to do.