by Laurajane3006 » Sat Jun 24, 2017 10:03 am
Hi, ive never posted on anything like this before. I dont even know if this is the right forum to discuss what happened. I havnt even really thought about it in 10 years, but now i cant stoo and wanted to write it down. When i left school at 16 i became really good friends with a popular girl (i was really shy and quiet) we had a holiday booked with my parents for in a few weeks, and decided to celebrate by going to a party. When we got there everyone was taking ecstacy. Id never taken it before, but my friend talked me im to trying it. When i was high, she started getting really mad with me saying she didnt want to go on holiday with a virgin. Shed already slept with a lot of boys so she didnt want me embaressing her. Then she locked me in a bedroom with her male friend, she said i couldnt come out until i had sex with him. I was really scared and nervous, i told him i didnt want to. He told me it wasnt a big deal, so we did, we had sex. Ive regretted it my whole life. Now i think it may have affected me more than i realised. It wasnt how i ever wanted to lose it. I know it wasng rape, but i dont think it was right either. I dont really have anyone to talk to about it. Anyone got any advice on how i get past this ?