by Leo Volont » Thu Oct 19, 2017 4:32 am
Good Morning BT
I was getting ready to welcome you to the Forum but noticed that this ‘wasn’t your first time at the Rodeo’. So I poked around with the Menus and found that you had posted in the Depression and Relationships Forums. Yes, I am glad you came to the Anger Management Section because your Irritability, though on the low end of the Anger Scale, can be very troublesome to self and others. Many people choose to live with their Irritability because they consider themselves well within the range of being ‘Normal’ but if they would only ‘work the problem’ they would be able to free themselves from it.
Your post in ‘Relationships’ was very informative. It seems you are being kept quite busy, that, in fact, most of the chores in the house fall within your active domain, and, to clarify things, you are the Husband and Father. I believe you say that ‘If you didn’t do it then it wouldn’t get done’. Yes, but many men would simply isolate away from the rest of the house and ‘hole up’ in their Library, Studio or Workshop; but you have a strong sense of Duty toward your home and family (or you are a bit Obsessive Compulsive. For instance, in my own case, I can easily suppose that many people would think I live like an absolute Pig and if they had to live with me, they would not be able to restrain themselves from picking up after me and then resenting me for it (as I believe my ex-wife could well testify to), but I would consider that their problem, not mine, just as I suppose you Wife might be thinking – that if She doesn’t see a Problem, then why should you? I’d have to actually see your House or talk to your wife in order to get a better Picture of what is going on). Anyway, it seems that you could be overworked, whatever the reasons, to the point where we could expect you to be All Stressed Out.
Now, about your current posting, first, that you can’t seem to enjoy yourself when socializing. Yes, I know the feeling. But I AM an Extrovert and I often very much enjoy going out and Socializing. The times when I find Socializing ‘irritating’ is when I am ‘looking at my watch’. When we think about how busy you must be all the time, I can imagine that you might have a problem with ‘sitting still doing nothing’, or nothing that you consider very ‘useful’. To really be able to enjoy society, you need to be relaxed. In many Cultures people draw the Line between Work and Play by taking a drink. Of course Alcohol is not strictly necessary for relaxing, but it is kind of like a Signal to the rest of the body to release a lot of the muscle tension built up during the day, and a Signal to the Mind that worries can be temporarily put aside (and many people find that they get just as ‘loose’ by ordering one of those Beers that have very low alcohol, so apparently the ‘Signal’ can be more important than the actual Alcohol). If you don’t Drink, then you might decide to dress specially for Society, or just find something or anything as a Signal to your Mind and Body that you are Officially Letting Go. Oh, there is also the Problem people have with being Preoccupied with Themselves. If this describes yourself then you can practice Making Yourself Just Listen Attentively when others are talking. Don’t look at your watch, and don’t think of what you might want to say (often in thinking about what we want to say, we stop listening. I find it a great fault in others, that often when I am in the middle of a Story it will seem to suggest to somebody a Story of their own that they wish to tell, and they will cut me off to tell their much more important Story. Yes, that is rude, but it also meant that they weren’t really listening to me at all but were busy thinking of what they wanted to say). The benefit of really listening to others is that it takes your Mind off your own worries, and more times than can be counted, you will find that these people are able to give you valuable information and insights that you will end up treasuring. That kind of thing makes your Social Time seem ‘valuable’ which also helps to keep you from looking at your watch.
Oh, about being Shy about Dancing. Many Men have this problem. And it is a Huge problem, and mainly for the women in their lives. You see, when a Woman goes out to have Fun often she can’t help but to revert back to being something of a Girl again, and ‘Girls’ LOVE to Dance. Perhaps the BEST Date you can think of to please a Woman is “Dinner and Dancing”. Yes, but you ‘suck’ at Dancing. Well, the Honest God Truth of it is that NOBODY CARES! Even if the room erupts in hysterical laughter with people pointing at you with one hand and holding their sides with the other, you can bet the barn that 5 minutes later you will be the furthest thing from their minds. The Universal Truth that you really need to take to Heart is that ‘People are Preoccupied with Themselves, Not You’. Have you ever had the Archetypical Dream of suddenly being out in Public with no cloths on? For many people this is a recurring dream and they always find it very troubling. But there is always something they fail to notice, and that is that NOBODY CARES. People often wonder what a Dream ‘means’, but most of the time you simply have to just look closely at the details and they explain themselves. We often Worry about what other people Think of us, but the Real Truth is that PEOPLE ARE NOT THINKING ABOUT US AT ALL. That is perhaps the most Liberating Thing a Wannabee Extrovert can realize about people, that as long as you are doing no harm or insulting people, and keep a stupid smile on your face you can do and say about anything and be considered “friendly, cheerful, gregarious”, and will be invited often to parties, especially if you allow others to talk without interrupting them and show your appreciation for them. Oh, and in regards to Dancing, you should review your own appraisal of other clumsy and unskilled men who went out on the dance floor. Even while you can clearly acknowledge to yourself that they are terrible dancers, you must also realize within yourself that it doesn’t at all blend over into what you might believe about them Intellectually or Morally, and that you might even find it ‘cute’ in some funny eccentric way. Well, you could be that Same Guy in other people’s purview, which isn’t bad at all, is it. Also, if you have a room to yourself, you could put on music in headphones and practice moving to music. Once you get the ‘Feel’ of Music you can never dance Totally bad, but, as I said, it doesn’t matter anyway. Your Wife would STILL love to go out Dancing. Oh, and often times the Lady just wants her Husband to get up, as a sort of sign that you he is giving his Permission, then often the Girls run off and dance with each other most of the time (for, as I said, Women turn into Girls again when they dance, and ‘Girls’ like to flock together).
Oh, I just thought of something… in dealing with the more severe cases of Anger that I encounter here at the Forum I often speak at length about Adrenaline. Now, my first thoughts with you were that you did not have an Adrenaline Problem, but then it occurred to me that maybe Adrenaline ‘presents’ differently in your case. For instance, that your sense of Duty, or that kind of Judgmental Attitude Thing you have (note your son’s funny pair of favorite pants that drive you to distraction), may cause the release of enough Adrenaline to effectively keep you WIRED UP all the time. I won’t go into detail, since this is just a Hunch, BUT you could Test this Hypothesis by simply staying aware of your Jaw Muscles. If you notice that you spend much of the time with your Teeth Clenched or your Mouth firmly shut, especially when you FIRST notice a Trigger Event (like walking into the Kitchen and seeing a sink full of dishes, or your son walks into the room with his clown pants), THEN report back to me. This would mean you have an Adrenaline Problem. You could read the Daisyclose Thread for more details right away, but, long story short, all you have to do about Adrenaline is Learn to Instantly Relax your Jaw Muscles whenever they clamp down. This sends a Message to the Adrenal Glands that the ‘Adrenaline Emergency’ was just a cognitive misunderstanding and then the Process immediately shuts down. If you have been Wired Up on Adrenaline this whole time, than this New Awareness may go far toward fixing your problems.
Now, as for Books. Yes, there are books I can recommend. They might also help with your problems in regards to Depression and Anxiety. You see, across the entire spectrum of Psychology they have found that Cognitive Behavioral Methodologies are the most effective Therapies. And once you use the Cognitive Behavioral approach with One Thing, it is relatively easy to apply the same methodologies to everything else. My favorite Anger Management Author is Ronald Potter-Efron. You might look at 3 or his titles: “Letting Go of Anger”, “Angry All the Time”, and “Healing the Angry Brain.”