Hi, I am actually new here and needed to adress my feelings somewhere it felt safe
I know that I am an over-giver, i love to express my love for my friends and family through gifts and small attentions. Especially with my friends, I’ll do anything to lift up their mood and even put my own feelings aside to make sure that they feel better even when that makes me feel bad, I would also not talk about some things they might have done that hurted me because I don’t want to bother them and all that kind of stuff but lately it’s been so hard. I’m feeling really hurt by some of my friends behaviour and as always I didn’t talk it out and I’m just full of resentment now and I feel like I’m being unfair to them because I didn’t try to communicate those feelings sooner. But I also feel like they should see that I’m not feeling well and ask me why because thats what I would do for them.
For example, we went on a trip recently with three of my friends, one day we were suppose to all go out for the entire day but I cancelled on the very morning because I didn’t feel like going and told them to go without me and have fun. And that was genuine. I stayed home alone and was fine with that it was my decision but for the whole day they didn’t send me any message to ask how I was doing, what I was doing or anything like that and I felt left out. Even when they came back at the end of the day none of them asked me what I did all day like they didn’t even care..
And those kind of events are happening a lot recently, I know they don’t have bad intentions but it just hurts to see that they sometimes won’t do for me what I would naturally do for them
I don’t really have a question, I just needed to express my feelings somewhere
Thanks to those who will read this till the end
Feel free to comment or tell me your thoughts about this.. maybe I’m just an over thinker too