Hello,
so getting straight to the point, I have this thing were I have really negative thoughts that will pop into my head with little to no effort. This is probably something I have developed over many years without noticing until I decided tonight that I'm sick of it and am going to do something about it. In my defense, I only notice things like this if it gets really bad otherwise it will just linger in the back of my mind and will be a distraction or just unpleasant feeling. I'm just sick to death with this, it is just so inconvenient and annoying.
An example of this happening would be starting to read a new book. I would think "Yes that would be fun, I can learn something new and I can do something for a few hours." Then instantly I'd automatically have thoughts such as "you'll read it for a day then get bored the next" or "you won't be able to remember anything the next morning". Another would be "I am not doing this the right way" etc... etc... Hopefully that gives you an idea of what I'm explaining. This is automatic and have only really noticed it a few moments ago. I'm happy I noticed this because it's been going on for a very long time. I felt a surge of happiness when I put this into words. How do I break this? I enjoy reading and a lot of my old hobbies but this has ruined a large part of it for me. This has affected all parts of my life, you name it. Making breakfast, reading, writing, work, friends...
I've watched a few podcasts before and people "train themselves" by just repeating a type of behavior. I guess that is something I could try? I came here because some people may know what to do or have a better idea of what to do