Hi. I've been with my girlfriend for about 5 years now and we have a daughter who will be a year old this coming Thursday. We had a lot of sex from day one- since I broke her virginity back in 2013 and since then we've been sexually active. Here's the thing though, these past few months I've been desperately trying to get her to come on top and F*** and she refused.. Well, she tried several times before, even during May this year she tried doing reverse cowgirl but not for long... Think it went on for less than 5 minutes.
These past weeks we've been talking about it and she ended up telling me that she won't do it until we get married (which I think is a bit of an unfair deal) because I feel as though she's ignoring my sexual desires when I, on the other hand try my level best to make sure she she's satisfied. Our sex life is great and all, I enjoy having sex with her and I think she does too, considering the fact that we can't have enough of each other whenever we're together. My main concern is her refusal to meet my needs- though a part of me still thinks maybe she feels embarrassed about it, which is perfectly normal, I however don't think I'm getting the full story with regards to it. I mean, we've been having sex for five years, we even have a kid together, which is why I'm finding it very difficult to understand why she would wanna wait for marriage to do a mere sex position. I think that story is total BS!
Anyway, a little over three weeks ago I was at her place for the weekend and we did a lot of F***ING, which was great for both of us. I left Sunday evening and later that night she texted about how much she enjoyed love making and that she wished I would come back so we can do it over and over and over again, alright; those were good news to me. I then raised the "being on top" issue again and she protested against it, preaching the marriage verse all over again, so I asked if she doesn't care about my satisfaction, to which she replied "Do I not satisfy you "? And I told her I satisfy myself since I do all the f***ing, then she said: "well, my plan was not to have sex before marriage but that didn't work out, and my reason for not coming on top of you is because I still want to do what's left of my plan, so I still stick to saying I'll do it once we're married and if you don't want to satisfy me until then, it's fine cause I won't change my mind"
That's pretty much the last time we spoke about it. This is very confusing to me and I feel like she doesn't care about my concern. Is there anyone who might have went through the same experience? Is it normal ? And if there are other women on this forum who can relate to this, please share some insights.. Thank you!