There are a few similar threads about this and I have found them very helpful. However I would like some input on my specific situation as well - and also just to write it all down really helps.
My girlfriend and I have been together for 4 years, living together for 3. We are both in our 30s and I am ready to take the next step. I have been talking about buying a house and starting a family. She was never sure if she wanted that. Not saying no, but not saying yes either. She is like that in a lot of areas of her life: love, work, travel.
Recently she has been under a lot of stress, because she is figuring out the next step in her carreer. But also because of my constant need for us to plan the future. She asked for space a few weeks ago and says she does not know if she wants to be with me. We agreed that we need to find a new way to communicate our needs to each other for our relationship to work. She has just mostly been pushing me away, not responding to texts, going out with friends, only coming to bed very late.
I have been trying to focus on me, taking up a class, volunteering. I spend a couple of nights at my parents. When I got back she told me she had not missed me, but also that she did not feel much at all and had just been crying a lot. Also that she felt bad about eating unhealthy, gaining weight, worried about her carreer, what she wants in life. A couple of years ago, before we met, she has also been depressed and it looks like she is depressed now. She wants to focus on herself and cannot deal with us right now.
I just don't know what to do? On the one hand I want to show her that I love her unconditionally and that even though she is pushing me away, I will still be there when she figures things out. On the other hand, we have been having relationship issues that we also need to work on, which is just not possible right now and I also really want to build a future together.
Any input would be very much appreciated.