Hi everyone,
I'm a male in mid 30's. I had a frew heartbreaks in the past and these hit me very badly. I felt weak because of them, so what I've been doing in my last 15 years is that I intentionally stopped establishing relationships with women with the hope that when I'd get a bit older breakups wouldn't hit me so badly.
Recently I started looking for a girlfriend again on dating sites, because now I'm getting out of age a bit, but what I found out is that my attachment to women probably got even worse.
Looking after an explanation I've learned about the Anima concept of jungian psychology. It perfectly explained my emotional life. What I did over the years was that I just swept the thing under the rug and repressed my Anima so much that now that it looks like a shaken can of soda, if it gets the tinyest impulse it want's to explode.
If I see a profile of some random girl on a dating site that looks suitable for me I immediatelly fall in love with her without even having said hello. I'm not kidding. I even feel physical symptoms that I never felt before like my breathing changes, I feel warmth filling my body, stomach spasm.
It happened a few weeks ago for the first time and I was like WTF??? Do I have a flashback from molly? I didn't take molly for 17 years now. I also don't do any drugs other for a very long time now.
After I slept the feeling passed but the next week the same thing happened with another girl. And again and again with others. It seems that I'm falling in love immediatelly with anyone whom I find attractive to the slightest extent.
I can't date anyone this way. I want a clean head. Not that I don't want to feel emitions later when I get to know someone, but I wan't these emotions to be sparked by the real personality of a woman, and not by an image in my head that I'm projecting to other women.
What should I do? Is there a therapy for such a condition?
Any help would be appreciated.