My friend, there was a time when your father was the focus of your worry, and that was followed by a long obsession with g until she married another man. Now it seems there's nothing in your life apart from your job and your mother -- and the job is a particularly pressured and isolating one. From what I understand, you're regularly sent to other towns where you don't know anyone, while your employer's focus is on productivity, making you meet increasingly tough targets and deadlines. The bosses don't care about you, apart from how much they can squeeze out of you before you collapse and can't work any more. It sounds like hell to me, and our friend Zeki told me he understood what you must be suffering.
Your job shouldn't be taking up the whole of your life. It's no wonder you're constantly going to the doctor with imaginary illnesses he can't possibly cure.
You've been Desperate since long before I signed up to the forum. You and I have been long-distance friends for years, and all I know about you is that you have a horrible job that prevents you creating a social world, and no girlfriend. In your free time you listen to music, watch movies, drink gallons of green tea, take various pills, and worry about where your life is heading. I can tell you where your life is heading right now: more of the same.
A week from today you're going to be 30, and all you do is worry. It's time for you to take drastic steps. Zeki is willing to advise you, but you have to approach him; he has no need to approach you. The only reason you think his English is better than yours is that he's been in England long enough to have the accent right. As far as I can tell, he can't write in English. You can.
I'm really sorry I messed up his mobile number and didn't get yours before he left to visit his family. If you had had his number while he was in Turkey, you could have talked to him more cheaply and maybe you could have met face-to-face.
I'm really trying to help you break out of your current lifestyle. Apart from 'talking' here, what do you think would be the most helpful thing I could do for you?