D called me an amateaur. There will be some VIP customers coming to our office tomorrow at the very last notice, and all our staff from our management group are on leave (interstate) so there's no body else to entertain them through out the day. I would be the only person in the office for 2 hours until D comes back - but I'm just an admin staff - how am I suppose to handle this or answer their questions? What if they ask me questions and I can not answer them?
D was nervous about this, and so am I! He told me I should bail out of this...I'm not sure what he meant by that? So in his eyes, I am an amateur - (which is correct because I'm not a good talker), but I just can't believe that's how he feels about me. It's really sad to hear this from him but at least he spoke the truth!
I'm really tired of this company...it seems like nobody cares. I can't beleive I am pulled into this at the very last minute. And I hate when they don't include me in emails... I know something like this would happen and I don't have any updates info about this event....tomorrow's event would be a humiliation for me.
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P.S. I have a crush on D - a crush is when you love someone but too afraid to show or reveal your feelings to that person...therefore, nobody at work knows aboutt this because I hide my feelings away. I treat D like any other staff at work - only talk to them when they talk to me...
I need to face the fact that he doesn't like me, and that he wish I leave this company...just overheard him calling his miss, 'babe' on the phone. When will I ever wake up from this fantasy?!!