by stray cat » Wed Aug 13, 2008 12:38 am
Hey there..I guess I was waiting on somebody who knows more about that.But yeah,I'd say I was hooked on that too,for a while.I took them every day and increased dosage,when I came down quicker...for almost a year.I only quit because the dude I got them from and I got in a fight.Guess I did not want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me that needy.
And I was really whiny and kinda depressive for a while,but I still smoked weed.So its also hard to say if I had physical withdrawals,being my mind came up with amazing reasons why I need the pills,for a while.
I even checked to get them online,but while doing it,I knew that I could get myself into a lot worst situation than being used to get high on weed.
You said you want to escape.I can tell you plenty of escape routes,like become a workaholic,drink,gamble,have sex or join an organized religion and let them hypnotize you.All of those are evasions.Just because you want to escape something bad does not mean you will find whats good.
Why does one want to get high in the first place? Its' also an escape from something unpleasant,right?
From what I read about those pills (and what kept me from ordering them online)is that they are really close to heroin,and there are cliniks for withdrawal.That does not mean that YOU need a clinik.It's really good to not compare yourself and assume.It's hard to say if you experience withdrawal or fear of withdrawal.In both,your mind clings to the pills.As it does anyhow,right?
So maybe figure out what you're escaping from.And if it can ultimately be escaped from or needs to be faced factually and without panic.
I feel for you,but only you know what you have to do,and you DO know.
Much luv