Friend Died And I Don't Care

reading some of your other posts about how you have the urge to harm and stab people over trivial things, id say you have DSPD, hold on until the new mental health bill finally passes.

I don't believe so, or he wouldn't be on here seeking help.

Hello Neo, please tell us more about your friendship with this person.

The most obvious theory would be that you're on denial. But yes, please tell us more.

Btw ... I'm so sorry about your loss.

Another common scenario for this is childhood abuse neglect, or any trauma, you get conditioned into blocking anything painful so you eventual find that you cant feel, pain doesnt touch you at all. Its not that you dont feel rather that you are conditioned to deal with painful situations in this way.

I think I've experienced similar stuff myself. When my mother died I just stood at the funeral like a statue and never cried or felt anything (I thought) I was actually smiling my way through - even though now I can recognised I was shell shocked. I had a very painful background prior to this though and I dealt with pain in a similar way all through my life probably until recently. On the other hand tiny upsets would be devastating to me. Maybe not quite the same as your experience? but similar!

I too would urge you to seek professional help because you can learn to understand where this is coming from and deal with it and ovecome it (including your violent thoughts)

neoSephiroth wrote: - I am empty inside.

What the heck is wrong with me?

I just think it hasn't begun to register yet, and when it does, you'll know it.

yes I agree with Danny too - there's shock of course. Sometimes the implication of things take a while to settle. If you continue to feel nothing a couple of months on however, seek some help!

Yeah I agree, hopefully you will grieve in time as this is natural but it does happen.

A friend of mine lost her sister and she did not shed a tear even though apparently she was close to her but I know she has greieved in her own way but have to say it shocked a lot of us. We all handle emotions in a different way thats what I thinkn and grieving is not something you have to prove.

Perhaps you could visit the resting place of your friend, saying good-bye the way you feel you should and talking about your freindship and what it meant to you. Then go do something in honor of that person. Help an elderly lady cross the street, visit the children in a hospital and bring bubbles, go visit that friends family. You are alive, vital and strong. That's a gift.

1) What's DSPD?
2) I knew him well, we taked often and he was a part of my everyday life.
3) I was not deglected as a child.

Well, what is this DSPD?

Dangerous & Severe Personality Disorder:

http://society.guardian.co.uk/mentalhea ... 45,00.html

Btw, I don't believe you've got it. A set of questions if you don't mind:

- How did he die?

- When was the last time you saw him?

- What are your thoughts on death?

Sounds like shock, it could last for awhile. Then when it wears off, you will feel the sorrow

sebas wrote:Dangerous & Severe Personality Disorder:

http://society.guardian.co.uk/mentalhea ... 45,00.html

Btw, I don't believe you've got it. A set of questions if you don't mind:

- How did he die?

- When was the last time you saw him?

- What are your thoughts on death?

-Blood clot to the heart, died in the night.

-Can't remember.

-Sh*t happens.

you might be in some form of shock or in denial or something else that would suppress a grief reaction or you might just be reacting in your own way to his death, wheres the law that says we must greive in any particualar way.