Hi i can understand how you feel i have only been suffering for 8 weeks now and know how much it changes your life.
My main love in life is my job but have been unable to go to work or the pub or to mates houses belive it or not only feel safe in my bathroom??? at least taken lots of showers.
The last two weeks however i have been feeling down and so sad and got a book on changing the mind from the library it has taught me so much in two weeks.
Even now i have just got in from work.. just went in sat down spoke to everyone got up and came home.
Not stopped shaking since but also mad my self walk to local supermarket to buy paper instead of local shop.
It must be hard for you having kids to cope with amd can only hope if you need to talk drop me an email.
Like you i prefer to be near loved ones when down and am on the phone every two mins to someone.
They of course dont understand how we are feeling and we feel we are putting a great deal on then.
If you have lived with this for 4 years then you are a far better person then me but this book realy is helping me.
Sorry if i have gone on and again if you wanna drop me a line feel free
Regards Matthew