Hi, it great to find a forum on eating disorders, but as I've read through the postings people are talking about bulimia and anorexia. I don't see much about my disorder, which is neither of those. Instead I binge eat - I can't stop myself at times. (I have considered bulimia, but frankly I have a lousy gag reflex and the thought is gross, plus I know the physical dangers, too.) But for me a small snack can explode into a mountain of food. I know what I'm doing, I tell myself to stop, but I can't. Over the past couple of years my weight has zoomed up to over 120 lbs (54 kg). It was all because of this stupid disorder.
I "it bottom" last summer after one family member and a dear friend died, partly because of their eating disorders. I also realized I had really been neglecting my health in various ways, and I was pre-diabetic, miserable, had no clothes that fit, my feet and knees hurt... well, you guys know the drill.
I've been eating better (not perfectly) for the past 4 months now and I've started some regular exercise. It's grueling on some days, but I've dropped about 25 lbs (11kg) and that only leaves about 90 (40kg) to go.
I hope to hear from others with binge eating disorder (BED). Or as I tell myself every morning, It's time to get out of BED."