any ideas ?

15 years of panic attacks,running out of shops,getting off buses before time.no social life. but i aint given up yet nor have i died . i keep going back for more.need some ideas to try as my progress seems really slowwww.every day i try to set myself a task no matter how small,even if it means going to bus stop but not getting on.every day is a battle,and sometimes its easy to loose all hope. i know im not going to die or pass out but try saying that to yourself when your in the middle of a major panic attack.seemed to have tried everything i can think of exept pills which i dont really want to do cause they scare me i should be able to sort it out myself, cause i know its only all in the mind,,,,,,,,,,(and the legs,stomach,hand, throat,chest. only joking)see 15 years of them and i can still joke about it.anyway any ideas, ill try most things.thanks