I'm not sure if this is the right part of the forum to post this, so please move it if you think I can get better answers elsewhere.
I'm a white male in my early twenties. I have nothing against "minorities"/non-whites.
But, whenever I see a white woman with a minority, more specifically a black man, I am almost seething with anger. It's like... I can literally feel myself getting angry. It's not just seeing white women with black men, it is even if I hear or see a post on social media for example of a white woman lusting over a black man, I feel the same kind of reaction.
I experience the same feelings seeing white women with non-whites (Asian, Mixed..etc) but it's nowhere near as strong as when I think of them being with a black man.
I don't know why this is because like I said, I'm not racist, I don't think non-whites or blacks are inferior etc. But it just doesn't seem to go away.
It's not always JUST anger, a lot of the time it is sadness, like a feeling in the pit of my stomach when I think of a white woman with a black man. I mean this can literally change my entire mood. I can be the happiest person alive, smiling and just chilling, and then the moment I envision something like that(white woman w/black man) it can literally change my mood to the other end of the spectrum where I just feel down and sad.
Does anybody know why I am experiencing this? I can elaborate on anything or answer any questions you have. Thanks!