I don't even know what to say.
Honestly I don't know what I want to get from this, either, but I guess anything is worth a shot.
So I don't know if I have depression. I tell myself that everyone gets sad and that "I'm fine" but I don't know how true that is anymore.
I have no friends. Everyone seems to have left me. My family have other things on their mind and only care about me when I am having a mental breakdown, and I suspect that is just to get me to shut up. So, I don't know. I just don't know anymore. I read a lot of books, and I listen to music and watch TV shows... it is all unrealistic, I know, but I also know a lot of people and a lot of ex-friends that have happy endings, too... so why can't it be me? Why do I have to be sad and alone?
I just don't understand what I did wrong, what I did to deserve this.