PROCRASTINATION

every little step you will make today will have such a big beautiful outcome in the future. you just need to get into motion, one step at a time. with time you will come to see that you have gone a long way. Best of luck to you my friend.

start with small things and gradually you will see improvement and your accomplishments.

GreenLobster wrote:And since it is my fault, the logic says I sould hate myself, right?

LouiseHay would see it the other way round. You hate yourself therefore you sabotage your own happiness by inaction. https://www.louisehay.com/tag/how-to-love-yourself/

GreenLobster wrote:help me find motivation again, actually, better: motivate me and help me get out of this self-hatred downwards spiral.

Actually, better? Uh...no.

It isn't the job of anyone else to motivate you. It isn't the job of society or your family or any random stranger in an online forum to provide for you.

If you want to find motivation again, stop expecting and accepting handouts from other people. Cut yourself off from those things and people that enable you.

If you want to find something, you search for it.

Apparently your current hobbies/interests are not what gets you up in the morning. Apparently you currently have enough access to food, water, electricity, and the Internet that these are not an issue. You have those basic comforts.

Motivation is not in those things that you find comfortable. My guess is that is where you spend most of your time searching. Get out of your comfort zone. As already suggested, take small steps.

Many people experience this, especially now

Do you fap? If yes here your problem stop and solved

My fellow programmer once told me that if you want to handle procrastination you should split the task into as many subtasks as possible. Then your brain will not find any excuses not to do the task.