Hello, I would like to share with you an experience.
Last February I had a "psychotic episode" which caused me to be locked up for several weeks in a psychiatric hospital, I had never had one in the past. the experience was quite traumatic since I had this impression of an "evil presence (negative)" in me, I doubted each of my movements and reactions (guilt), I felt my energy being more and more concentrated in my head I did not allow myself any rest because I was afraid of being definitively sucked by this entity ... a nightmare. and that included the presence of a nauseating odor which appeared in my nose.
Since February I have gained 9 kg out of the 15 that I had lost over several months. 2 days ago while I was on my computer, this odor appeared again. And since then I observe without knowing what to do the nightmarish vicious circle to get back in place ... by reading articles I realized that what I have experience then, and now again, is a panic attack, all the symptoms are there especially the over-self-control - which I have the impression that it does not come from me ... since I especially want to rest and not fight a thought! - the most unbearable is that it's slow! it is not at all a 20-minute crisis with strong external agitation, it is rather a dull internal agitation, a very strong focus on what is wrong; and I do not know if I face enough, maybe I avoid feelings, or I trust too much in the future to save me....
is anybody have experienced similar things?
how to stay with sanity?
thanks! :>