by Ebowman83 » Sun Dec 10, 2017 1:27 am
Hello im Paine8303 andbim 35 of age and I suffer from anxiety attacks, I didn’t realize I had them until I was on a train and was paying for my ride close to home. It struck me like lightening and before I know it tears was covering my face and it felt like I was standing on egg shells on a recliner, I couldn’t breathe and I wasn’t sure if I told someone they would understand what I was going through, from this point I thought my life was over I called a friend to put something positive in my head because I felt getting up and jumping off the train while it was rolling along. My brain goes to very bad places and I feel like a demon attached itself to me, I hate to feel this way and now I have anxiety frequently, just two weeks ago I felt like jump off a bridge and my brain was telling me it would satisfy the demon inside, I called my friend to help me and got me to me to relax and breath I felt like when I was talking to him there was a ball in my throat to keep the words from coming out, I want to be happy again not to mention I suffer with seizures to and ever since then when diagnosed with seizures I had a stroke, I was able to recover from that but I think my brain did and the pressure just consumes me I don’t know what to do I feel like people will think I’m crazy, but I think if this keeps going on I’m afraid that I may satisfy that demon inside.