Someone tell me to JUST GO EAT SOMETHING, STUPID!

i have had a lot on my miind that stopped me from eating for the last 4 days. ive had like 3 tiny pieces of chicken and a slice of toast. and I feel better than ever! sure i'm pale and can't lift my arms up for long, but I don't feel slow and bloated. i might just not eat forever. but like what you say, i also always monitor what i eat. i feel guilty about every bite

Sw33ti3Pi3 wrote:i have had a lot on my miind that stopped me from eating for the last 4 days. ive had like 3 tiny pieces of chicken and a slice of toast. and I feel better than ever! sure i'm pale and can't lift my arms up for long, but I don't feel slow and bloated. i might just not eat forever. but like what you say, i also always monitor what i eat. i feel guilty about every bite

What's been on your mind?
If you've just started to avoid eating, think carefully about your decision. I'm 38 and have suffered with an eating disorder all my life. It started just like what you describe. Fasting here and there. Before you know it, it will run your life and rule your world. Every decision you make will be based on food. Goals and dreams simply disappear. At least, that's been my experience. And worst of all, it won't end. It becomes a huge addicition.

So, one place to start is; what is it keeping you from eating?

I made a good decision today!
I had a suprememly stressful day. Actually ended up with a panic attack- the kind you think your heart is going to explode. I had to lay down and put my feet up so I wouldn't pass out. That kind of panic attack.

Once I started to come around, my go-to comfort is to eat (usually cereal) and then purge it. Strange, I know. But there's not much about an eating disorder that makes sense. Something about it just instantly soothes me.

So there I stood in the pantry, pondering cereal choices. Not wanting to do it. I actually hate purging. BUt so strongly compelled at the same time.

And I just turned around and took my anxiety medication, walked out and that was it. I was instantly proud of myself! Granted it took an HOUR for the medication to kick in. During that time I called on my support team (friends and my therapist) and that helped distract me until the med kicked in.

I did purge once earlier today, but this is the first time since I can remember when I walked away from a purge episode.