Hi all, I registered just to post this. It's possible I'm freaking out about nothing, but last night I tried "femdom hypnosis" with someone I met on an S&M site. I was very nervous about trying it, but I figured I would give it a shot and that any potential negative effects could be reversed afterwards.
Here's a description of what she offered in her own words:
Alright you pathetic lonely people time to line up.
Was trying picking one of you at a time out of the bunch, but that's just not working out. Scheduling problems, or just chickening out, whatever.
Here's the deal. Line up here for consideration to be worked on every Wednesday at 7 pm pst. One at a time I'll pick one of you and mess with your mind for as long as it suits me. Who I pick will depend on activity and creativity to earn my attention in this line.
What am I picking you for? Text based hypnotic control that will permanently alter your life beyond recognition. For the enjoyment of myself of course, maybe you will enjoy it as well. Be warned that I will be choosing how to change you. Yes you have a life and so on, I wont ruin it. Neither will I acquiesce to every little fantasy you've ever had. So be ready to be controlled and lose your choices.
So, I stupidly tried this out. Anyway, it wasn't that great. I don't really feel different. I feel a little weird, but I felt weird before trying it because I was worried about, so it's probably just psychosomatic. Anyway, she talked about implanting her "presence" into my core being and erasing my personality, and stuff, which is obviously freaky.
People have posted about her on a site called Fetlife, and apparently she knows what she is doing...here's one post (graphic, I apologize):
I was once a test subject of Epiptheria’s. We corresponded for several months but after I realize what she was doing to me, I had to break away. I had always considered myself straight, but after her sessions I noticed a change in my sexual preferences. Regular porn could barely get me hard anymore, I had to rely on sissy stuff and femboys. I would edge myself to images of c**k and finger myself into oblivion.
Even today I struggle to overcome the intoxicating allure of worshipping a real man’s c**k. Whatever she did to me has forever changed me.
So, now I'm worried that I've been permanently changed and I need to go to a hypnotherapist or something to undo this. Could one session have done damage? Here's some of our conversation:
Gladly you are weak and pathetic for my presence
yes Miss, I love it
Emily your strongest fantasies revolve around losing control
yes
Emily losing control and realizing you are powerless
yes Miss
Emily Henry feeling helpless in the control of others
yes
Emily you've lost your control
yes Miss
Emily) you feel submissive
yes
Emily you feel docile
yes
Emily you automatically accept your situation
yes Miss
Emily you've forgotten how to resist
yes
Emily A blank and empty fog surrounds you
yes
Emily You have no direction of your own
yes
Emily You have no control
yes
Emily You want me to be in control
yes Miss, please
Emily Complete control over everything you do
yes Miss
Emily You’ve let go of reason
yes Miss
Emily You don’t understand objection
yes
Emily You only feel obedience
yes Miss
Emily You cling to my will
yes Miss
Emily You rely on it lead you
yes Miss
Emily) No will of your own
yes Miss
Emily No choice of your own
yes Miss
Emily I make your choices now
yes Miss, I understand
Emily No structure of your own
no structure
Emily You rely on the rules I give you
yes Miss
Emily You need me to rebuild you
yes Goddess
Emily You are a blank slate
yes
Emily All I say is true
All you say is true
Emily You have no ability to deny
I can't deny
Emily All I say will always be true all you say will always be true
So...am I completely screwed now?