It has been a year since my last post as I am afraid I stopped coming here when I was feeling ok with myself and my life. Over the last 2 years I have been constantly thinking about my age and how I am now probably over halfway through my life, being 49 nearly 50. Barring a few minor depressive episodes everything has been fine until recently. I have had mild heart disease since May last year and this is a worry I try and keep to the back of my mind. However over the last few weeks I just feel flat every day and I find it so difficult to get out of bed each morning. I don't lie there and ruminate/worry like I do when in a pit of depression and despair but just want to stay there and "get up later".
Once I AM up I get to work and get through my day, feeling quite mellow by the evening, but still slightly on edge as if I am waiting for something bad to happen. Does anyone else around my age feel this way? I never believed in the mid life crisis until now and it really sucks big time. I am constantly tired and lack enthusiasm these days. The only thing I look forward to is a weekly slimming world meeting I attend with my wife as I have lost just over a stone in 4 weeks
BTW I am currently on a daily dose of 225mg Effexor for my depression/anxiety and have been for over 10 years but don't want to come off due to the horrific stories I have read about withdrawal from it.