Im a 43yr old male.
my mum past away on christmas day and from that day on ive not bin eating at all, iff i have eaten its bin at night so i can make myself vomit and it got to a stage wher i couldnt make myself vomit so i have started to chew and spit, the reason why its just at night is juring the day i have a father and brother around so i dont eat untill they goto bed.
I get up in the morning around 11.30 am as i dont work because of copd and asthma, and just sit in front of computer all day without eating anything and at around 9.30pm i start to drink my 4 cans of lager 2 cans of low% alchahol and 2 cans of high strenght alchahol so i can sleep at night.
i dont know where to turn it feels like i just want to see my mum again but ive started from the last 2 months to have a left leg pain and numbness wich starts to get worse when stood up the pain starts when i wake up in morning and easers when im down stairs and sat down in chair and then its only numbness which is on the skin surface not the muscle.
it feels that i dont want to be around and see my father pass away.
my mum passed away and didnt even have an illness her heart just gave up.
i went to friends for a drink christmas eve and returnd home around 11pm to see mum in toilet feeling weak and lgot ambulance out and later christmas day she died.
i dont know what to do pls help....