2 months ago my fiance left me unexpectedly.
A little background, we met in July 2019, we instantly clicked and I was so excited, I was not looking for anyone and he just seemed to show up at the right time. I didn't want to let my walls down due to past relationships but he won my heart. He lost his job and suddenly disappeared and ghosted me for a month.
He came back apologized and I forgave him,he even gave me his purple heart and bronze star from his days as a marine. His job had him working out of town for weeks but I accepted it. He moved in and in February he proposed,I never pushed or pressured him, we had a wedding date set etc. Then a month before he left he changed he became distant,he hadn't touched me in months because of lack of arousal, I caught him messaging other people but I forgave him. I would drink and get very emotional about how much I was hurting, he got up one morning after a long night of declaring his love for me etc and left saying that I pushed him away.
He has completely erased me from his life like I meant nothing, I recently found out his bronze star and purple heart were fake and everything he told me about his military career was a lie. He was very nasty to me at times and made me feel like I was not good enough and that I needed to change everything, he critized everything.
I know I am better off but I can't stop thinking about him and missing him, I know I am a fool for missing a person who I probably never knew and that lied to me probably the whole time I knew him. I want him to know how much he hurt me and get answers but he won't communicate with me. How can a person do this to another person? What can I do to help myself heal and move on
Please no remarks about how I was crazy to put up with him etc and please don't critized me for still Loving him etc