by Victoria » Mon Jun 21, 2004 11:19 am
Hi David,
I know that whats good for me doesn't have to be good for you but the similarity of your predicament got me remembering mine.
I used to feel worse after I started doing something physically exhausting like exercising too. I felt as if I were trying to kid myself - as if the thought of actually completing or even continuing the task at hand was ridiculous, I gave myself grief for being short sighted too but that was because in my hope to change I had bitten off more than I could chew.
Then physically hurting afterwards - my head felt as if it would explode with the slightest movement. A physio-therapist told me that the the initial exercising caused alot of muscle tension - and said that even just walking at an quicker pace than usual was enough to get the system up and going. But with the proper shoe wear otherwise again the spinal cord could get antsy and also provoke a headache.
Do you honestly want to exercise or did you just try because you read or heard its good for you?
I found that it depended in what state I was in as to what good it did. Only afterwards did I realise that when you go through the phases of whatever matters you are contemplating at the time, you already know whats good for you. Passivity or activity. Its a question of trusting oneself too, but I guess you know that already.
Anyway when I got a bad conscience about pitying myself and stumbled at my first attempt at doing amends and trying to get back on track - I nearly gave up. That is when I accepted help from the learning path. And have never looked back since.
Did you read it?
Maybe you have different talents too, than those you suppose you should have or what you think are expected of you.
Have you ever just written a list of the things you want to try and do or learn or of things that just plain interest you? Could be interesting. It helped me.
The other thing - alcohol - apart from the fact that the sugar does really affect your body chemicals not just inhibitions, there are plenty of medical reasons for low tolerance and their effects. My girlfriends' son (18yrs) had a medical check up last year and was advised to stop eating junk food, white bread, sugary stuff and like Kathleen mentioned, to drink loads of water. At least 4 pints a day. Within a month I hardly recognised him, He was fun to have in our group again, but that was besides the point, he obviously enjoyed his own company again too.
What kind of exercies were you doing ? How long & often did you do them?
Cheers and hope to hear from you soon
Victoria