Is there something wrong with me?
I'm 21 years old and I'm a straight guy. However, many people even my close friends tell me that I usually act and sound like a girl. This make me keep thinking about my sexuality and sometimes I can not get rid of questioning myself.
Here is something about me:
- I sound a bit girly and usually act like a girl( in the way I talk, gestures) although I want to be more masculine.
- I'm not into sports but I'm totally fine when taking or watching some of them
- I'm quite sensitive, easy of approaching and sometime kind of not confident or may be introvert
- I can do household chores and I like cooking
- I'm kind of a nerd
- I don't think I am effeminate, instead I'm a man of a firm stuff
- I like the feeling of being alone and love quiet, sad song (sometimes I listen to rocks)
- I like listening to people and giving them advices, I love helping others with everything I know
For years, I wonder whether I'm gay or not but I find no interest in guys. I used to have a girlfriend but our relationship didn't last long. I have never had sex and yes to some certain extent I am going crazy for sex. Sometimes I even dream about having sex with girls. I have normal sex drive and still find girls attractive and sexy. Some people who first meet me think that I'm gay but for me the thought of being with a guy doesn't seem natural at all. I do have male friends and some of them are very closed to me. May be because of the way I sound and act, girls seem to be not very interested in me.
The question of my sexuality, why I am like this keep being in my head for years and I feel depressed about it.
Does anyone know or have the same problems? Can you give me some advices?