by D-Teigh » Tue Feb 04, 2020 5:01 am
Hello everyone, posting from Massachusetts in the United States here, and simply put, without the help of this forum, I would have not been able to get a solid grip on my life. Ever since moving back to a Massachusetts from North Carolina at the age of 16, I have pretty much been a daily smoker. Heavy quantities of marijuana everyday. Since the age of 16, I was smoking 20 grams a week if not more, depending on if I had heavy smoke sessions with my friends. I was able to graduate high school with good grades, but dropped out of community college after one year due to my total elimination of motivation as a result of heavy marijuana usage. I began using daily because at first, the highs were great. I felt as if my problems disappeared and all my issues were resolved at the bottom of a bowl pack. Well, eventually I developed a heavy tolerance to the herb and became highly addicted to the plant which I previously thought was a cure all. My first worry all day everyday was how much marijuana I had left in my mason jar. I only worked just to blow my paycheck on weed, and never stopped thinking about weed at work. I would treat customers poorly and had to make conscious efforts to simply make eye contact with customers. Marijuana destroyed who I was as a person. I’m one of the “all or nothing” people that I have seen throughout this forum. I’ve read all 174 pages of this forum, all the stories, struggles and improvement people have made in their struggles with marijuana addiction, which is a real and legitimate thing. Most people think it’s harmless and non-addictive, which is just being ignorant of facts. When the brain becomes used to the daily intake of heavy amounts of THC, it is difficult to imagine life without it. Eventually, since my tolerance became so high, I started the use concentrates to achieve the highs I used to get, and this only worsened my situation. Dabbing 80-90% THC oil daily for about a year not only destroyed my finances, but destroyed my perception of life and my social interactions. Anyway, I am now 13 days free of any type of THC product, and I feel great. I can be around my mother when she’s smoking and refuse to take a hit. My will power has increased every single day and I finally feel confident and almost like the old me. Without the help of this forum I wouldn’t have been able to do it. I truly believe the most powerful thing in this life is being able to relate to others, understand their trials and tribulations and how we overcome obstacles and roadblocks in life. I truly cannot express how thankful I am for these posts, from people all over the world it is just such a powerful thing to have a connection with peoples stories (even though I’ve never met anyone on here) and be able to feel as if I’m not alone. I had some issues with sleep and irritability the first 4-5 days but since finding this forum I am absolutely never looking back, I am ready to become more motivated to move up in my career, and perhaps go back to school. I am not going to smoke or intake any THC for the foreseeable future, and I mean perhaps decades. Had I known the negative side effects of excessive marijuana use on a habitual basis, I would have never picked the stuff up. Natural highs from being
Social and renewed interests in things I previously needed weed to enjoy are much better than the synthetic high produced by marijuana. Though I believe it should be legal and has many medicinal uses, it is not for me and I’m glad I have untangled myself from this net which has had me trapped for too long. It’s all or nothing, and I choose nothing. I haven’t felt so powerful and in control in my entire life- this forum must continue as it is the most helpful and enlightening resource I have come across to help me with my problem. I will be providing updates and responding to others. We are all in this together, all from different parts of the globe. What a wonderful forum this is. Basically, this forum saved my life from being wasted being blazed all day every day. I feel as if I want to (and can) learn new things now. I am likely not the only one whose life has been saved by this forum. Wakinglife, thank you for posting back in 2006 (I was in 2nd grade at the time), without the Initial post In this forum followed by all the powerful stories in here, I would have been 30 before I knew stoned out of my mind looking back with regret. I am glad I’m being enlightened at 22. I have so much life ahead of me and look forward to making real, and genuine friends who are not part of my old stoner group.