starnexus wrote:Whenever I do something that is 'brain intensive' for example math I start to get angry. For example today I was working on my math (I decided to get a second bachelors degree) and negative thoughts started playing in my mind about the past. What's worse is I have no reason to be angry.
I'm pretty well liked where I am and don't have any major problems to deal with right now so my brain just searches for any reason it can find to be angry and so it'll bring up things that happened months and sometimes years ago that aren't even relevant anymore.
I can't do my work when I'm in this state because I start making little petty mistakes and that aggravates me even further.
It only happens when I'm bored or concentrating on something or bored.
Please help
I think we often have the answers within ourselves, but just as often need someone outside us to point it out or remind us.
I see "bored" twice like sandwich bread around the meat of "concentrating" in your last sentence.
There might be something to that. Maybe you're angry that what you deem as worthy (that which takes deep concentration) is turning out to bore you! That would upset me and probably anger me at the same time. Who wants to see holes in their dreams?
Only you know if this is even close to true. Trust your own response. I think you will find the answer if you'll stop and take as objective a look as you can.
If my guess is right, and you are bored by the things that take a great deal of concentration, you may want to focus on what brings you contentment, fulfillment. Not just happiness. Sometimes fulfillment is far more important than the fleeting thing we call "happiness". My son found that out when he left an extremely lucrative banking position to work in the Auto Body Repair business which includes using his hands, having something to point to as "his doing" when he's done, and the joy of painting as he is an artist and loves cars. He makes perhaps half what he used to, but he is deeply happy and fulfilled, and I couldn't be prouder of him.
Hang in there. I hope this was helpful and wish you the best.