Hello,
I have been married for 4 years and we share a 3 year old daughter. I have lost all passion and so much about him annoys me. He has never satisfied me sexually and the thought of kissing him makes me cringe. He is a good man and father and thinks I am the best woman in the world. He left his country and everything to be with me.
Recently I had a drunken kiss with a coworker whom is married with small kids. What should have been long forgotten has ignited this mutual attraction and desire for one another. We are kissing all the time and texting. We are finding ways to spend time together to talk and get to know one another. This was unexpected from both sides. We each are developing strong feelings for one another. There has been no sex and we will remain adamant that it will not happen. We both agree it would be catastrophic if we were ever find a way to be together.
To complicate matters, I have been offered a transfer to the opposite coast. Our workplace is toxic and I wanted to leave badly. Career wise it is a better opportunity. But now the thought of leaving my coworker tears me apart. On top of that, my husband does not want to move. He is comfortable here. I am scared to leave and I am scared to not leave. Please help. What is wrong with me?