I'm fed up with life

I'm an already lost guy with a f... Ed brain.. It doesn't matter if I have a ajob please save me

desperate788 wrote:none of my wishes realised for the last two decades

What a whopper!

When you wanted to eat, you had food.
When you wanted to pee or get clean, you had a bathroom.
When you were tired, you had a bed.
When it was New Year, you went to your mother's home to enjoy wine and company.
When you needed money, your pay came through.
When you wanted a holiday or a day out, off you went.

All of your wishes have been granted, all your life.... except those that contradicted the wishes of another person, eg. when g married someone else. Would you expect any intelligent woman to want to live with someone who does nothing but complain? Just one hour listening to you would be exhausting. It would make any sane person want to get right away from you.

I will not complain anymore

Another lie.

I just want to chill at home

Off you go, then. Go home. It's always up to you. The tax office isn't paying you to sit online moaning all day.

please help please

Pathetic. Seriously, what do you think anyone can do to help you? Help yourself!

I couldn't go abroad I couldn't enjoy music I couldn't enjoy sexuality

That's not complaining I'm just telling the fact should I lie my life doesn't include any excitement just suffering

desperate788 wrote:my life doesn't include any excitement just suffering

Whose fault is that?

My father and sister made that they cant stand me enjoying life

I wish Saturday never ends but it will. The point I have to suffer at work when I don't enjoy anything

desperate788 wrote:I wish Saturday never ends but it will. The point I have to suffer at work when I don't enjoy anything

You freakin' enjoy your suffering. If you didn't enjoy it so much, you'd do something about it. Suffering is comfortable for you. For you to move beyond suffering, you'd have to do something uncomfortable, which is to do something different than what you've been doing for years. It's tough; the mind fights against doing something that is outside of its known universe. You'll continue this way until you've had enough. If you've not had enough, no one outside of yourself is of any help whatsoever.

Yes I think I enjoy this suffering subconsciously. What can I do to end it? I don't want to do any uncomfortable thing. I'm dependant on my comfort. It's a personality trait. Doing something different? Worried anxious mood prevents me to do anything I can't travel can't even drive car

desperate788 wrote: It's a personality trait.

Personality is not engraved in stone.

It's a matter of decades I can't change.