by bbright » Thu Sep 28, 2017 6:21 pm
So basically I f***ed up. I did something that i don't remember when i was drunk, but I was told in the morning what i did and its just awful. Im going to lose my girlfriend, lose my best friends, lose everyone (hopefully family will be there for me... i dont know yet) which i deserve, and I'm in a foreign country for the next 3 months, so i won't be able to talk to anybody and have no one that I know here (not that that matters because no one would talk to me anyways). Im getting some pretty shitty dark thoughts at the moment, but like I dont want to act on them because I want to grow up and have a future with a family and kids and stuff. I dont want people to feel bad for me, because what i did doesn't deserve sympathy. whether i was drunk or not.... doesn't matter it still happened. I guarantee no one will want to see me ever again from who i know at the moment. Should i start fresh and move away from everyone? (I'm 19) or what should i do... I just have no idea.