So I got my donkey kicked at work last week. I dropped the ball and made an donkey of myself, and a complaint was made against me. Luckily management didn't take it any further than giving me an ear chewing and it's been almost a week since, the long and short of it is, I'm now on managements radar and I'm being watched closely. Moor row, I need to go in and make a formal apology to one of the partners we work with and I have no idea what reaction I'm going to get.
I still feel indignant, and while I accept part, if not most of the blame, I still believe I am not 100% to blame, but management don't see it that way so I'm copping all of it! I've talked it over with a couple of colleagues and they agree it's not totally my fault.
I've felt ill since last week, and barely ate for three days after I got told off. I'm losing sleep over it and I'm so anxious and on edge it's taking all my energy not to burst into tears, I've never been in trouble at work before.
I'm dreading going in tomorrow to apologise, and being watched all the time is making me crazy. My boss doesn't work with me every day but has started dropping in at random moments so I need to stay on my toes and look busy all the time, which isn't always easy in my job (there are peaks and troughs with work).
Any words of wisdom from you guys?