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by **LightLove** » Wed Apr 03, 2019 12:22 pm

Hello people. How are you? I hope you are all doing well.

I'm not doing great. Don't know why. I don't know exactly what to say but i don't like life much. I don't know what to do with it. I work and live alone. I don't have many hobbies.

I feel depressed. I do meditation and sit and stare at a wall for 2 or 3 hours (or until I fall asleep) I don't have friends or family. I don't have much money to do anything with all of it goes on bills and stuff LOL. I feel weird most days not sure how to explain it. Like an out of body experience when I am with other people. I have went to my doctors when I last attempted suicide. They offered me drugs that I have been on now for 3-4 years. They don't seem to help and I have been on other types none of which seem to work. I think about suicide a lot it could be, possible be, my solution to freedom.

Ask me anything.

Love and Light.

by **LightLove** » Wed Apr 03, 2019 12:27 pm

This is how I feel,

Lacking energy or feeling tired
Feeling exhausted all the time
Experiencing 'brain fog', find it hard to think clearly
Finding it hard to concentrate
Feelings restless and agitated
Feeling tearful, wanting or cry all the time
Not wanting to talk to or be with people
Not wanting to do things you usually enjoy
Using alcohol or drugs to cope with feelings
Finding it hard to cope with everyday things and tasks
Experiencing 'burn out'

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Wed Apr 03, 2019 3:19 pm

LightLove wrote:Ask me anything.

Is your name Jason?
Have you been banned previously?

by **LightLove** » Wed Apr 03, 2019 3:27 pm

Hi Richard,

how are u??

no my name is not Jason
no this is my first time. just exploring the wide internet on these sort of issues.

nice to meet u.

by **LightLove** » Thu Apr 04, 2019 2:13 pm

On Earth, love is experienced at a low level compared to all that exists. The God/Spirit frequency is beyond anything we know & is pure love, pure light. As we come closer to the center of creation, we will know Love completely & be totally In the Light.

This is what I hope to believe. It can be real maybe if you believe.

by **LightLove** » Mon Apr 08, 2019 8:29 am

Who else is at work today? Doing their best serving other people?

Good job workers. I love sleeping. I slept most of the weekend. Sleeping my life away. It feels good.

by **LightLove** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 8:09 am

This is how I feel,

Lacking energy or feeling tired
Feeling exhausted all the time
Experiencing 'brain fog', find it hard to think clearly
Finding it hard to concentrate
Feelings restless and agitated
Feeling tearful, wanting or cry all the time
Not wanting to talk to or be with people
Not wanting to do things you usually enjoy
Using alcohol or drugs to cope with feelings
Finding it hard to cope with everyday things and tasks
Experiencing 'burn out'

**Posts:** 9885 · by **Candid** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 8:51 am

Sounds like you need a holiday.

by **LightLove** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 9:43 am

Hello Candid. How are you?

You are probably right but I Can't afford one right now.

**Posts:** 9885 · by **Candid** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 9:48 am

Seems to me you can't afford not to have one, even if it's just a few days off work doing nothing but stuff you enjoy.

by **LightLove** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 9:53 am

Ummm sure...I just don't like the thought of being stuck at home all day with nothing to do. My mind wanders and I act weird.

**Posts:** 9885 · by **Candid** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 10:09 am

Could you give yourself permission to "act weird", without judging yourself?

by **LightLove** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 10:22 am

I could sure. I just don't think it is much of a life. I suppose I am able to suspend my judgment on what healthy is and just act weird.

**Posts:** 9885 · by **Candid** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 10:29 am

No one's asking you to act weird, unless that's what you're moved to do. Maybe you're acting out something (or some things) you're not consciously aware of.

by **LightLove** » Tue Apr 09, 2019 10:43 am

I wonder around the house. Up and down the hall. Putting clothes on. Taking clothes off. Talking to myself. Walking into walls. My mind turns into mush. I listen to the same song over and over for hours or watch the same thing over and over. I sleep I toss and turn. I get up. I put the heating on. I hit myself over the head. I walk around naked. I scream sometimes. I overdose on tablets. I walk around like I am about to faint etc...it is odd and I don't know why I do it. It is like I am watching myself doing it.

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