heels over the cliff... barely hanging on

**Posts:** 2 · by **sunking** » Fri Aug 18, 2017 1:11 am

Am I afraid to show the real me? Am I not good enough? Should I get myself out there more?
Why is it that whenever I allow myself to open up feelings I get hurt? Everytime… Either it stops before it gets going, guess I’m ugly as **** or something, or I get comments about not being sensitive enough, not good enough…
It would be one thing if this was a phase, but seems to be going on for a while now… like 30 years
I’m afraid to put myself out there with just about anything….my dreams, my lovelife, friendships… I seem to get everything thrown in my face in some way at some point..
People always leave..
I feel like I’m barely clinging to the edge for about 2 years now… and the grip seems to be slipping..
It scares me how attractive the cliff drop keeps getting..

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Fri Aug 18, 2017 5:16 am

Using a cliff analogy. Turn around and start walking somewhere else. Go enjoy a forest, a river, a small village.

It is not exactly clear what you believe you are missing out on in life. It seems your focus is on you and what other people think of you. You fear showing the "real you" because you fear how others will react.

If you work on caring less about what people think it will help you enjoy all that is out there.

**Posts:** 386 · by **kyrani99** » Fri Aug 18, 2017 1:04 pm

sunking wrote:Am I afraid to show the real me? Am I not good enough? Should I get myself out there more?
Why is it that whenever I allow myself to open up feelings I get hurt? Everytime… Either it stops before it gets going, guess I’m ugly as **** or something, or I get comments about not being sensitive enough, not good enough…
It would be one thing if this was a phase, but seems to be going on for a while now… like 30 years
I’m afraid to put myself out there with just about anything….my dreams, my lovelife, friendships… I seem to get everything thrown in my face in some way at some point..
People always leave..
I feel like I’m barely clinging to the edge for about 2 years now… and the grip seems to be slipping..
It scares me how attractive the cliff drop keeps getting..

It sounds like you have some inhumane people for relatives and maybe some among those you believe are friends. You need to get away from them and start new somewhere else.

Have a look at my videos on the Underlying Conditions of Disease. See my signature for the link. These describe the way in which inhumane people (e.g., psychopaths, narcissists etc.) use foul game play to toy with other people's lives.

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