(Hello everyone, this is my first time posting on this website
Hi there, my name is Laureat and welcome to the forum
I’ve always been a normal child, growing up I’ve always loved animals, I love my family
great,
but I’ve always been an excessive worrier. I would worry about everything from things such as demonic possession and even earthquakes.
there is nothing wrong: if we are concerned about something: we may have questions like WHY THIS? WHY THAT? and these are all intellectual questions, concerns which is nothing wrong about it but we may consider a problem when we obsess too much over something and we become anxious, and that case we may have to address, we may want to quit thinking about it, quit worrying about it
I’m 17 years old now and I feel like my mind has two sides. I feel like there’s me and then there’s a dark side of my brain.
there are no two sides of you: it is only you when you are comfortable and it is again you when you are uncomfortable
The Vegas shooting has been traumatic for me
when we read/see different stories that people are shooting around it is normal to fear " THIS CAN POSSIBLE HAPPEN AGAIN " and we may even hesitate to go outside, but we shouldn't allow some criminals to enjoy ourselves, we shouldn't allow someone to stop us living, we should continue living our own lives , enjoying our own lives
my mind is always telling itself I’m going to be some type of murderous monster when I grow up. I’ve never planned on hurting anyone but it’s more of a “What if?” scenario.
the question you need to think about is : how does our mind work?
if you start a chess game, the mind will try to think about all the possible moves
good moves, bad moves, the mind will tell all the options
you don't necessary make the move you just because you know its possible: you make the best move you believe
just because you had some kind of thoughts that doesn't make you a criminal: because you have had other thoughts as well and you choose the best moves
I’ve started talking to my doctor and was prescribed Lexapro. It’s helped a lot but I still get horrible intrusive thoughts that sometimes I just cannot shake. I’ve completely chewed off all of my nails. I’m so terrified that I’m going to be a murderer. I’ve spent hours researching why serial killers do the things they do. I even found out that Jeffrey Dahmer has the same zodiac sign as me. This completely threw my mind in a loop and I even cried. Why is my mind so dark?
you are not a criminal : these are just your fantasies and you should not worry about
the medicine is made to do something: when you take it will sure do something ; it will try to help
but the medicine cannot change what you focus on, what you believe
what you focus on = feelings
what you believe = feelings
do not focus on stupid things, do not believe stupid things