217 days free from marijuana carts and flower.

Hello Uncommon forum.

I would like to share my experience from addiction, recovery, and current status. So, a few months before I was 17 I moved across country to California, my high school sweetheart broke up with me and I became depressed. I made a friend and he'd buy me a bunch of weed at legal dispensarys, because I come from a state that wasn't legal. I lived home with parents and I didn't want to smell so id buy dab carts. That became my addiction. I smoked dab carts daily, almost every hour of the day, since July 2018 until September 2020, 27 months of consistent high THC ranging from 70-90% potency. I did dabble with some flower and blunts/bongs/joints every now and then, but my main poison was the dab pens, it was the the ease and convenience factor for me. Well, I worked all the time during that so I was pretty active, no health problems, and I haven't gotten sick that entire time. I used to when I was younger. however I was always overweight. I realized I was wasting money and smoking would make me very angry towards the end of my addiction. I had a break up in July 2020 and before that I was with this person, I would slow down on my usage. I never took any T breaks those entire 27 months. I did slow down during 2020 feb - July. After the break up I got depressed again and smoked heavy the entire august 2020, and stopped the first few days of September 2020, on my 19th birthday. Im currently 19 turning 20 in 2ish months come September, im excited and thankful to be alive and happy and I cherish my life now big time. Once I quit, I had awful, just terrible, the worst crippling anexiety and feeling of I was going to die. I would have panic attacks so bad that I would get up from bed to pee and almost pass out. I stopped smoking and taking THC in my body, but I did use a very high CBD oil with slight THC from September to late November to help with the unlivable panic attacks and death feeling. Late November I smoked a joint with my friend due to someone passing away, after quitting smoking from Sept 2020 until that late Nov 2020 day. I had a bad panic attack and took a shower and thought to myself, I used to do everything feeling like this? I used to go to work, go to School, completely being not myself. That was the last day any thc or cbd entered my body. From the last few days of Nov 2020 to December my anexity was bad but slowed down during the holidays. In jan 2021 I had slight panic attacks but I stopped worrying that much when I went to a cardiologist and had an ultrasound on my heart. Turns out there was nothing wrong with my heart. I think February or march 2021 was the first month where I didn't have a panic attack. When I went thru this, every single thing gave me a panic attack and I felt like I was dying. Going in the car with my mom would nearly kill me. I just wanted to go home and jump in bed. My body during these panic attacks felt like sh**. I had head aches, my heart would race, I couldn't breathe at times during these attacks. The thing that scared me the most was the fact that I could place my hand over my heart area in my chest and feel it beating. My cardiologist said this was a normal thing, called an pectoral pulse, or something like that. I have a weird thing sometimes, even before I ever smoked, where I could take a deep inhale, and open my mouth and hear my beating heart. Pretty scary when you think your heart is failing you. But, that heart ultrasound made me confident that there was nothing wrong with me. Shortly after I became slowly myself again. Im still slightly afraid to go out with my friends and do anything independently until I loose more weight. As of 2-3 weeks ago, I have been getting more active and lifting light weights and some heavy weights for about 20 mins a day, Mon-Fri. Im trying to loose weight until I can get down to a good healthy weight. I started taking a natural multivitamin supplement 2-3months ago, probably around march/early April. I have been taking a krill oil supplement too. I have been trying to eat as clean as possible meaning organic, natural, non gmo foods too. I want to do a whole 360 with my body and life. for so long I thought so low of myself. but now I truly am grateful for everything in my life. I want to start a family, live long, and Never become ill. Right now im 217 days clean, and Im so proud. I have a lot more growth to do but im starting off right. Right now I face 2 big issues, I have eye floaters, and tinnitus. Im looking into ways I can get rid of the eye floaters first then the tinnitus. if anyone has experienced these can you recommend some natural organic remedies? Im trying to find organic natural eye drops, and maybe some organic natural ear drops to get rid of these horrible ailments. This is what im focused on now. Also, if anyone can recommend some weight loss stratiges too, to improve your body as well. I use 10lb dumbbells right now and lift them for 20 mins a day, I also do one set of chest with a 25lb weight, although thats super heavy for me right now but I will build my way up. I eat very clean now, I meal prep chicken breast, and organic zucchini, squash and broccoli/cauliflower for dinner, a light lunch and breakfast everyday is grass fed yogurt. Im trying my best to get back to being me. anyone can do it. you are not dying if you feel that way. I had it the worst ever. Anyone can get thru this, keep up the fight, the light will come. Please recommend me cures for my eye floaters and tinnitus. thank you so much for reading my post, I look forward to all your comments.