by wakinglife » Tue Jul 27, 2021 2:37 pm
15 Years Weed Free!
Last Thursday I hit the 15 year Canna-versary of living Weed Free. Back on July 22nd of 2006 I was quitting for a weekend workshop. That weekend I had a vision (while on a drum-trance journey) that I was a rabbit, nervously munching grass, twitchy and on edge. In the vision a cougar came and devoured the rabbit (me) and its friends. The next stage of the vision journey I became the cougar. I took the symbolism to heart: the pothead me was a rabbit, anxiously consuming my plant. The cougar represented my true inner ferocity. After that weekend, I decided to stop living like a rabbit, and embrace my inner cougar.
It was freakin' hard to do! The first month was extremely difficult. Finding this forum was a huge help in my journey. It felt so validating to know that I was not alone -- other people are out there who became addicted to weed and want to make a change in their lives.
Thank you, Uncommon Forum members, moderators, and founders!
Staying cannabis free is something I take seriously. It still boggles my mind that there is a small voice that tells me now and then that I could probably use weed in moderation now. That "inner addict" voice is false. It's leading me to take old paths that have now (thankfully) grown over. If I walk down those old paths they would quickly become reestablished. I am taking new paths now, forging new ways into the wilderness of life.
15 years off the weed, and my life is truly the best it has ever been: strong marriage, solid relationship with my kids, loving friends, growing meaningful community, rewarding career, solid self care, mental and emotional health are balanced. Setting cannabis aside was probably the single most difficult thing I have ever done. It's been difficult, but also rewarding. My invitation to you is to look deep within (perhaps undertake your own vision quest). Find that inner vision that guides you to the life you deserve to live.
WL