desperate788 wrote: It's all because of my father ...
Your father did not cause you to log onto this forum. Your father did not cause you to drink beer. You have not seen or had any interaction with your father in a decade.
STOP BLAMING HIM FOR YOUR CURRENT BEHAVIORS!!!
Your behavior is entirely unacceptable desperate! Grow up. Stop acting like a child. You have been in this forum a decade and you refuse to accept responsibility for your own choices in life. You moan, you whine, you complain like a young child.
People placate you and enable you. You apologize and play the victim. You are not a victim desperate, You are simply enabled by society and modern technology.
Don’t apologize. I don’t want to hear it. Do something about it. Get up off your butt and take action.