The first paragraph pretty much sums up the entire post.
So back to me. I feel envy and resentment towards my friends once they've hung out with someone else and no longer feel like spending time with other people. This is almost always the case with me since my whole life. I'd have good friends, we'd hangout, they/I want to hangout again but they end up spending time with other people and I'm the only one out of all my friends who still feels dissatisfied with not having enough "us" time. After everyone has had their fun and I didn't, I feel forgotten which logically I know is not the case. Or is it? There's nothing I can do but annoy my friends even more to hangout. Another problem is I end up spending my entire days hung-up on waiting for the next hangout rather than being able to focus on stuff I want to do. Everyone else enjoys their days on their own and I'm dissonant with contentment.
This may seem like they're toxic people, but this is only my side of the story. The people I'm talking about are the ones that tell me they love me as I do them.
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I'm trying to understand why I feel resentful whenever my friends are "sated" with having hung out with other friends. Sometimes they just had some fun with me and others, and they later on text another hangout session already. Before the next hangout session, they already spent time with someone else apart from the group and are in turn, difficult for me to talk to and text as well as try to set up that session we talked about.
What happens is they make up some random reason why they can't go. Basically avoid confrontation and are misdirect. Then they also seem bored texting me and talking to me as well. Or at least, they send me a maximum of 5 or so texts for a few consecutive days before they want to start talking and hanging out again.