theforsaken wrote:I want to live in the country with her. but that seems impossible, at least for now.
I think "the country" is the problem, theforsaken.
You've told us many times that you don't fancy any of the local women. You've proved your point over and over again, in several disappointing experiences with visiting workers on short-term visas -- and now you've been driven to online romance.
In the meantime, there hasn't been much to do except to get drunk with the other blokes. You've told us many times that you're a sensitive soul who doesn't feel good about being just another foul-mouthed, beer-swilling drunk.
Now that you've lost your job I hope you'll go to this new love's city, take up the job she can find you, and see what happens. You can let your house so tenants pay it off for you.
Even if the relationship doesn't work, you're better placed to meet a variety of women and to try your luck in a far greater number and variety of trades.