Last weekend, I was over at my girlfriends. We've been together 1 year. We wake up and I'm feeling at little low a little grumpy, this happens sometimes but she knows about it. I go on a long walk and talk to my family on the phone. I come back feeling really drained and feel like leaving to go do my own thing. I mentioned to her that I was gonna get going. She says that I was extremely moody. Which I was, but I wasn't hostile or anything. I just really needed me time.
She flips out and says she wants to take and break and not see each other anymore. I was so shocked by what she said, I couldn't process it. But I literally said 'Ok' and just left. The next day she texted me if I wanted to talk. I didn't text her back. The following day she texts me and says that we are broken up sense I ignored her.
We haven't talked since the last time we saw each other. I've cut all contact on phone and social media. To be honest I can't believe she would do something like that. I don't want to talk to her at all for a period that is TBD, or forever. I'm just so angry. I don't know what I would say. In my head they are nasty things. I just need the air to clear in my head.
To me this move on her part is impulsive, which is the type of person that she is. Sometimes she'll just snap. She is a very neurotic OCD person. She's acknowledged that she is mentally unstable.
Most of me thinks that this break up is for the better. Why would I want to be with a person that is so emotionally unstable that she'll snap at a moments notice? But another part of me says that I should be accepting of who she is.
I'm trying to acknowledge that I'll never know why she made that decision. That I can't rationalize her decision, especially since it might of been irrational.
I'm just so angry, confused, relieved, happy... A mix of contradicting emotions. All I know is that I don't want to talk to her...But another part of me says that the relationship isn't officially over until I acknowledge it with her...So at some point I have to.